Stressed

It 2am and I can't sleep have too much whirling around in my head and nodding off is just not an option. Have found the longer I am away from home the more increasingly angry I am becoming with myself, it is so hard have been away since September and must have applied for at least thirty jobs and still have nothing (talk about frustrated). To make matters worse the first job my other half applies for and he gets an interview straight away making me feel almost completely useless. It just makes me miss being home all the more. I am used to having a solid support system around me, friends I can always ring up and go out with, my mum's house that I can always call round and guaranteed my mum, dad or brothers would be in to make me happy again but whilst I am here I don't have that. I am not in no means saying that my boyfriend doesn't give me support, he constantly makes me feel wanted, it is just so different to how my life was six months ago.
This week we have been filling in his UCAS form as he is applying to Universities here and I support him with that every step of the way but I worry about financing it all and how we are going to get by. Luckily as he is an independent student he will get his course fees paid for and receive a student loan although as I am out of work at the moment and by the seems of things have become unemployable I just don't know how we are going to afford rent, bills and living expenses and still have a life. I was recently speaking to my mum about this and her comments were, "Welcome to the real world", but is it really meant to be this hard. We have not been out and done anything for months because we just can't afford it and this is just making us more frustrated with one another. Me more then him because I have trouble communicating my issues verbally and tend to just block it out and work things out in my own head.
I really don't want to go back home as if I do I will lose him and that is something I can't see myself getting through in a hurry. I need to get some motivation back and fix the problems I have going on in my head as I am only making myself worse.
Feel like my rant and moan is over now and am going to get a hot chocolate and watch a film.