Finally have an interview for a management position, I have been applying to places for so long it felt like I was getting nowhere but I suppose good things come to those who wait. The interview takes place on Friday at three forty five so am just going to prepare my questions and answers so I am ready for anything and can be more relaxed.
Had a good day all in all today have been shopping for a valentines present with my boyfriend and really enjoyed myself. I was given a pair of shoes which are stunning and I can't wait to wear them when I next go out, they make me look so tall which is much needed when I am only four foot nine.
I am really hoping that I get this position on Friday as I need a job so bad, things become really hard when you can't afford to do anything and spend a lot of your time in the house. I seriously have a list of things I am going to do when I get a job and first get paid it is everlasting.
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
Wednesday, 3 February 2010
Stressed
It 2am and I can't sleep have too much whirling around in my head and nodding off is just not an option. Have found the longer I am away from home the more increasingly angry I am becoming with myself, it is so hard have been away since September and must have applied for at least thirty jobs and still have nothing (talk about frustrated). To make matters worse the first job my other half applies for and he gets an interview straight away making me feel almost completely useless. It just makes me miss being home all the more. I am used to having a solid support system around me, friends I can always ring up and go out with, my mum's house that I can always call round and guaranteed my mum, dad or brothers would be in to make me happy again but whilst I am here I don't have that. I am not in no means saying that my boyfriend doesn't give me support, he constantly makes me feel wanted, it is just so different to how my life was six months ago.
This week we have been filling in his UCAS form as he is applying to Universities here and I support him with that every step of the way but I worry about financing it all and how we are going to get by. Luckily as he is an independent student he will get his course fees paid for and receive a student loan although as I am out of work at the moment and by the seems of things have become unemployable I just don't know how we are going to afford rent, bills and living expenses and still have a life. I was recently speaking to my mum about this and her comments were, "Welcome to the real world", but is it really meant to be this hard. We have not been out and done anything for months because we just can't afford it and this is just making us more frustrated with one another. Me more then him because I have trouble communicating my issues verbally and tend to just block it out and work things out in my own head.
I really don't want to go back home as if I do I will lose him and that is something I can't see myself getting through in a hurry. I need to get some motivation back and fix the problems I have going on in my head as I am only making myself worse.
Feel like my rant and moan is over now and am going to get a hot chocolate and watch a film.
This week we have been filling in his UCAS form as he is applying to Universities here and I support him with that every step of the way but I worry about financing it all and how we are going to get by. Luckily as he is an independent student he will get his course fees paid for and receive a student loan although as I am out of work at the moment and by the seems of things have become unemployable I just don't know how we are going to afford rent, bills and living expenses and still have a life. I was recently speaking to my mum about this and her comments were, "Welcome to the real world", but is it really meant to be this hard. We have not been out and done anything for months because we just can't afford it and this is just making us more frustrated with one another. Me more then him because I have trouble communicating my issues verbally and tend to just block it out and work things out in my own head.
I really don't want to go back home as if I do I will lose him and that is something I can't see myself getting through in a hurry. I need to get some motivation back and fix the problems I have going on in my head as I am only making myself worse.
Feel like my rant and moan is over now and am going to get a hot chocolate and watch a film.
Monday, 1 February 2010
New Year
I have been wanting to start my blog for a while but finding the time has been difficult as so much has been going on in the past few months. I have recently finished University and moved to Hampshire with my boyfriend and am looking for a new job in which to start my working career path(although am not really sure what I want to do yet).
Everything has been hectic over the previous months moving with my boyfriend was a big decision as we hadn't been together that long when we made the leap and I was worried about doing things too fast but things have turned out alright and we are coping well. I have also never lived so far away from home which is something I am still getting used to.
Well have moved now and am getting ready to begin my year so am just going to use this blog to update myself with everything that is going on and get down my thought/ feelings.
Everything has been hectic over the previous months moving with my boyfriend was a big decision as we hadn't been together that long when we made the leap and I was worried about doing things too fast but things have turned out alright and we are coping well. I have also never lived so far away from home which is something I am still getting used to.
Well have moved now and am getting ready to begin my year so am just going to use this blog to update myself with everything that is going on and get down my thought/ feelings.
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